don't feel all the love ..

but imma be ok =/

you hurt me because you loved me? .....

i miss you come back home.

you see the truth it needs no proof either it is or it isn't

FREAK MAN!

LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE ....

FREAK MAN...

i love you too much to let you go but i know its the right thing to do cause i was just simply hurting myself trying to hold on to someone who wanted to slip away

& am tierd

my heart got beat up

.....

i will ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

am walking towards my destiny starting now...

the ing's of life

learning

living

crying

loving

enjoying

curving

jumping

sh-ting

avoiding

hugging

trying

canceling

finding

settling

moving

reporting

scheduling

interviewing

working

making

exploring

hearting

walking

touching

mourning

partying

graduating

leveling

& so many more... but for those .. those are the ones setting in right now

"WHEN PEOPLE SHOW YOU WHO THEY ARE BELIEVE THEM" - Maya Angelou

"YOU CAN'T CHANGE PEOPLE , WE CAN ONLY CHANGE OURSELVE" - Z.Calix

& i stuck out like sore thumb

i wanna change people's definition of love.

tell me what is enough ...to prove i am ready for love. :'-(

church was awesome.

“To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.”- Anonymous

what goes around

goes around

goes around

goes a long way back around.

am f------ JUST WASTING MY LIFE AWAY..... (goodbye to everyone &if you understand me after today then ill know you aren't seasonal)

the words always touch me..

how much do you love me ? &why?

um huh? ....... yeah i know goodbye .... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! .... ok but.... alright yeah

alot of girls are "Precious" on the inside....

i think you better call tyrone.

facebook im's finally served a purpose.

" i'm actually nothing without God/Music ...and soon, music wld be nothing without me!" - A.Sugar

words of inspiration

the activist

the weapon

the mouth

& the artist

the calix.

& he thinks he knows me but he doesn't know the least - beautiful.C

annie don't wear no panties ( ERYKAH BADU IS MY FAVORITE ARTIST )

#randomthought the intro to "I Used To Love Him" by Lauryn Hill & MARY J. Blige harmony is HOT!

i was so young when this song came out ; but this is still a classic to me

" I'm awfully sorry. I didn't mean to frighten you. But you don't know what I've been through. And all because I was afraid. I'm so ashamed of the fuss I made."

Snow White

dance with me .... will you ?

laronda - my strong minded friend

the one who never followed but lead i smile every time i see you because you will always be one of my favorite bx academy memories

To dance is to be out of yourself. Larger, more beautiful, more powerful.

PUT THAT WOMEN 1ST.

why do i hate living in NYC?

am going to stop pouting

there has to be something good here if everyone wants to come here

"land of opportunity, right?'

well am going to just take everyone thrown at me from now on & enjoy life

am tired of being sad!

I HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE♥

"ill never be what you want me to be & i refuse to settle - SO WORLD AM WINNING" ( smile )

singittomechris.

" .. the PROTOTYPE & shes just THE DUPLICATE ;

& you can't make COPIES without 1st consulting the BLUEPRINT"

there ain't no substitute for the truth either it is or it isn't - India Arie

i'd rather be called beautiful then badd anyday.

"i know how i feel

& i know what i want

& i know what i need to do

with those 3 "i knows" trust me your unstoppable" - michelle.c

yay =)

going away for a lil while

gonna see what else is out there

gonna take pictures bring my laptop & blog my life away ♥

a true smile is all i need & ill be hanging with my brother one on one♥

ofcourse.

ive come to terms with the fact that you cant trust NOBODY.

owl city♥

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i wanna i wanna i wanna

i wanna sing across the world

i wanna change the world while am at it

i want to contribute my peace of art into it and give a smile to someone else

i want to write , write poetry , be a jounalist for a day or have a column in the news paper

take pictures in central park of me being girly , a rocker , or simply just me church girl zu

i wanna die my hair platinum blonde one day but for today whatever rinse i find it shall be that color idk why i said die when i know that'll leave me looking like cracked head version of amber rose.

i wanna work as social worker or in a home and have long conversations with people about there problems & see why there lives turned out the way it turned out.

i want to go Rikers ; and have a service with the inmates .... ( -_- scared but i mean somebodies gotta do it , God

♥'s

everyone )

i wanna be in a band and i want to sing in a European concert

i want to be part of something Huge

that when to take pictures, show my kids& say

"You Can do everything & anything you put your mind into"

Now all thats left to do is put my mind into

why sit & dream with all this talent

remember this blog ;) ..goodbye

ay porque?

& i wonder if they would just simply blame it on the fact she had issues?....

story of my life..

he is mine & i am his

it doesn't matter what i did

he only sees me for who i am

he saw the best in me when everyone else around me could only see the worst me

HE SAW THE BEST!

thoughts.

tears will keep falling

but its because am crawling

out..

out of the darkness & into this light

if YOU ARE GOD ALONE..

take me to another place

happy place

please...

...................

really missed these days ; i need to go back to this place - back to this spiritual level in my life

.................

feeling down right now ;

don't want to run to anyone nor anything to help me feel better

just feel like walking away from it all

........ is this what weak feels like ='(

wow.

this had it's lil funny moments ; but it looks like "i had nothing better to do moment"

pretty creative so i won't knock it =)

♥

http://twitter.com/prettyEMOTIONS ; I CAN BE YOUR FAV TRANDING TOPIC FOLLOW ME! =)

Yo Sere Maravillosa (I Shall Be Great)

am proud of Jen

yes i've nicknamed her

no i don't know her personally

but i know a wonderful spirit when i see one

how do you loose such important people in your life but still remain strong

i guess cause she had no choice

my women of the year is Jennifer Hudson

they say with victory comes downfall

but she was victorious either way she brought a beautiful baby boy into this world

lost all this weight ; through Weight-Watchers

& she looks absolutely splendid ♥

& one day this will be me ; even if idk how it will happen or where i will be ..God will take me places

cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetahh

so i have this love for everything thats cheetah ; cheetah lovers things!

the wedding planner

i want him to tell me

" You ARE EXQUISITE YOUR TIMELESS....

watching BET ... song of the day

its so MUCH NONSENSE THATS ON MY CONSCIOUS & I maybe I should let it out - am a beautiful girl in this here world & they ain't got nothing on me babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

lil girl lil boy

so how do you love?

we are like kids getting older together

but why

all we need is some maturity

lets go strong

lets prove "us" wrong

cause baby the only thing stop us from reaching the highest level is US.]

"you have got so far ..so far to go

&ill always love u

like a fat kid loves cake!

your everywhere...

tears&sad faces

"but remember Giants , they do fall" - Encourage Yourself

american doll ♥

"Tap on my window knock on my door I want to make you feel beautiful"

stay or go.

there are those things that are seasonal... & those things that are a lifetime...

which one are you!?

seasons ... walk into your season

“It is always the simple things that change our lives. And these things never happen when you are looking for them to happen. Life will reveal answers at the pace life wishes to do so. You feel like running, but life is on a stroll. This is how God does things.” -Donald Miller

honestly

TRUTH BE TOLD

I 1ST fell in Love W/ HIP HOP when i MET YOU....

iv'e been in love ever since

never knew it had a message

never knew the meaning nor the history

only heard the collaborations ; the beats drew my attention

...until you sat me down & told me to the listen to it

i found myself falling in love with the passion with the words with the joy and the feeling it gave me

& i know exactly how Sidney 'Syd' Shaw felt from Brown Sugar ; cause i still have the same feeling ♥♥

his&her's

Yeah..

Doo-doo-doo, mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm..

Doo-doo-d-doo, diggy-doo YO..

I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this

Gotta be somethin for me to write this

Queen, I ain't seen you in a minute

Wrote this letter, and finally decide to send it

Signed sealed delivered for us to grow together

Love has no limit, let's spend it slow forever

I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you

I ain't gon' assault em cause I probably did it too

Because of you, feelings I handle with care

Some niggaz recognize the light but they can't handle the glare

You know I ain't the type to walk around with matchin shirts

If relationship is effort I will match your work

I wanna be the one to make you happiest, it hurts you the most

They say the end is near, it's important that we close..

.. to the most, high

Regardless of what happen on him let's rely

There are times.. when you'll need someone..

I will be by your side..

There is a light, that shines,

special for you, and me..

Yo, yo, check it

It's important, we communicate

and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch

I never call you my bitch or even my boo

There's so much in a name and so much more in you

Few understand the union of woman and man

And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land

But that's fly by night for you and the sky I write

For in these cold Chi night's moon, you my light

If heaven had a height, you would be that tall

Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all

Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall

For better or worse times, I hope to me you call

So I pray everyday more than anything

friends will stay as we begin to lay

this foundation for a family - love ain't simple

Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually

Granted we known each other for some time

It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine

There are times.. when you'll need someone..

I will be by your side, oh darling

There is a light, that shines,

special for you, and me..

Yeah.. yo, yo, check it

It's kinda fresh you listen to more than hip-hop

and I can catch you in the mix from beauty to thrift shop

Plus you ship hop when it's time to, thinkin you fresh

Suggestin beats I should rhyme to

At times when I'm lost I try to find you

You know to give me space when it's time to

My heart's dictionary defines you, it's love and happiness

Truthfully it's hard tryin to practice abstinence

The time we committed love it was real good

Had to be for me to arrive and it still feel good

I know the sex ain't gon' keep you, but as my equal

it's how I must treat you

As my reflection in light I'ma lead you

And whatever's right, I'ma feed you

Digga-da, digga-da, digga-da, digga-digga-da-da

Yo I tell you the rest when I see you, peace

There are times.. when you'll need someone..

I will be by your side..

There is a light, that shines,

special for you, and me..

(I'll) take my chances.. before they pass..

.. pass me by, oh darling..

You need to look at the other side..

You'll agree..

& if

& if i were to look like Beyonce would you treat me different

if my a-- were like pinky's would i get a seat quicker

cause my feet are killing me

&if i were to sing like Jennifer Hudson would i be sign to Columbia

if i had the "look/image" would i get accepted into Hollywood

cause my feet are freaking killing me

&if you never heard me say i love you would you love me just because

if i gave you a thousand reasons to hate me would you stay around

cause my feet are killing me , seriously

& if my dreams were my reality would i stop walking

i've walked so much my feet hurt

stopped & took a break for you it & you still used me

the lump in the road left me with heartbreak

&the decision between cross paths left me w/ an empty soul

whats left to do but fall down on my knees & say

"& if i were to stop walking would you notice me for me & finally stop hurting ME?"

I scream in agony - i want you

my soul bleeds like my feet do

for society can accept my difference but it hurts more because neither can you

do you see the light in me that shined in me when you wanted to get to know me

do you love me to love me with no &ifs

my &ifs keep me walking

limping

crying

jumping

fighting

trying to succeed

trying to see wether i can change up a few things on my journey to greatness

but the crazy thing is you them it will be irrelevant when i get there

thats to say - my &ifs help me cope with my reality

but it isn't my reality its what stimulates my soul

when i get there - everything will be a forgotten memory of lessons learned

i want love.

love to be love

don't hurt me don't curse me.

dont love me to deceive me

dont love me to tell me you dont love me anymore

love me kiss me hug me show me your real

show me your there through it all

run to me like am your begining and end

because love... am tierd and am weak

& i dont want to be in love by myself

love me .... even when it hurts

hmmm....

when i think of my sins

i think of being forgiven

when i think of me being forgiven

i think about how much i been sinning.

Gods mercy is amazing but it shouldn't be taken advantage of ; because then he has to say well imma to have show you a few lessons.

story of my life...

i love God...

Because he LOVED me 1st.

God loves you and always will ; you've probably been looking in places or in things for Love. But Gods love is kind merciful patient caring unconditional everlasting fulfilling joyful. Give God your heart & i promise you it'll be the best thing you've ever done in your life ♥.

love doll?

vintage doll.

so my cousin came up with this lil group made up of different dolls

theres

spanishdoll

liteskindolly

dollyinthecity

& more

i like the groups title because i always considered myself a doll since i was young ; i guess i like to associate myself in things because i like to be the one is different in the crew

my old twitter name once was @lovelydollzu now its @prettyEMOTIONS

you might wanna follow me =)

but i need my doll to fit my personailty

my friend DESI ; said i look like an american doll because of the way i dress & the name just kept ringing in my head

so what do you think? americandolly americandoll lovedoll ?

...love

& everytime i know am gonna see him ; my heart beat skips throughout the day

....surrendering

i dance to the tune that is played.

i have this blessing..

"so take me to that place lord....WRAP ME IN YOUR ARMS

DIOS NUNCA CAMBIA..

my spiritual life need to be fed ; so i will feed it

"la palabra de dios me alimenta ...

10:15 english class

so since last year we've been having a visitor in our school

who happens to be a part of "The Last Poets" (GOOGLE IT)

&the lesson was on metaphors & similes

he asked us to all to define what love was; using these specific literary elements&

some of the responses were ;

"Love is beautiful like a kiss in the rain"

"Love is as beautiful as a confused soul finding itself"

"Love is the key to happiness ; even when you think you can't find it its always in your life someway somehow"

"Love is like the rush you get skydiving"

"Love is a risk you can't help but take"

( #MyFavorite ) "Love is like a dove flying around in heaven , spreading its Joy"

bella ♥

....wheres your strengh?

i don't need you
i don't need you
i don't need you
i don't need you
xinfinity

only GOD

"Only God understands the language of your tears."- Nick Vujicic

....Not only the tears but your thoughts, fears, desires and your heart. Psalm 139

love will never forget you♥

"Love is the only shocking act left on the planet♥"

Reed Bennett ( Valentines Day Movie )

BITCH

FRIENDSHIP OF BITCHES

1. wassup bitch - wassup female dog

2. your my bitch for life - your my female dog that comes whenever i needed petting & ill pet you too .. well sometimes

3. i thought u was my bitch - you thought id ride or die while u made a fool out of yourself

4. FUCK YOU BITCH - realized was too good of a friend to be on all fours

are you somebodies bitch? #amjustasking

Soul Ties.

"& its so hard to minister when your spirit man is on life support...

glitter gold $ fame..

glitz zits concealer conceal

$ fame the shame in your pain

pain came left went & reversed itself into this "front"

i need it all to

SMILE ..sigh

she smiles awake vs. cries while she sleeps

& they say your suppose to be the happiest in your dreams

tsk ..sigh ... broken doll .. crank ..crinkle ..bleed

THERE ARE NO DREAMS IN REALITY (erase ------- niggas don't wanna hear this shit)

girl , love , beautiful when will you cope w. the truth i love u.

love you nakedly darling

let it go awakenly pardon

MY FRENCH

"FU-K the surrounding & FU-K w/. the inside"

comma -quote - be -see- you

kiss your relflection

the imperfections

the flaws

the pain

the private the public

burden yourself with the glitter in you

the gold in your mind

the $ in your knowledge

& the fame in your grace

cause then youll see your 5 senses lied to you ...

just remember....... zu loves you

mistakes loves pain?...... huh

mistake loves pain
mistake loves the look on your face when you now look in the mirror
mistake loves the way you smile in secrecy thinking "since nobody knows ill forever be innocent"
mistake hates no consequence
mistake hates to see you smile
mistake loves to see you cry over the hate you now have for yourself

but beautiful is the being that has realized that people go through things to see that
there there are bridges ands paths in your life &
which one you decide you take
God always shows you some sort of sign before you go that way
its up to you to listen to that inner voice

"everything happens for a reason" - but what if you die never knowing why ......

....oneself

"so can i get a window seat? ....
...found myself analyzing this picture in every way possible
you would've thought i was a lesbian from the way i studied every nook & cranny of her body in this video.
this picture saids to me = no one is welcome to being different so the world will kill you if you try.
ive always asked myself why does there have to be a hurtful space between me & the world i live in ?